{"id":125,"date":"2025-10-22T04:00:00","date_gmt":"2025-10-22T11:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/grownupish.com\/?p=125"},"modified":"2025-10-19T21:09:26","modified_gmt":"2025-10-20T04:09:26","slug":"on-giving-myself-grace","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/grownupish.com\/?p=125","title":{"rendered":"On Giving Myself Grace"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>I wouldn&#8217;t say that I am a perfectionist&#8230;because I am the least perfect person in the whole wide world. I&#8217;m disorganized, distractable, prone to laziness, certainly not detail oriented, and often wrong (but I will always admit it). <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I hold myself to an incredibly high standard though.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I like to make sure I am always trying to do my best, especially at work. I hate messing up, especially if it was my fault. I especially hate messing up when it means letting someone else down. I like helping others and giving everything I&#8217;ve got. I hate saying no, when I know that I could do something well. I tend to overstretch myself, and I will always give to others without hesitation. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>All of which means getting sick and being forced to slow down is really hard for me, and therefore the last week was a really tough one. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<ul class=\"wp-block-list\">\n<li>I was not allowed to go to work for several days (I was contagious.)<\/li>\n\n\n\n<li>I was really tired and needed to rest &#8211; so I couldn&#8217;t do all the things I normally do, even at home. <\/li>\n\n\n\n<li>I had to say no to things that people asked of me.<\/li>\n\n\n\n<li>And now I&#8217;m behind and feel like I&#8217;m not doing my best.<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n\n\n\n<p>This is a place I really struggle.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>And if you know me, yes, I&#8217;m a hypocrite. Because I would normally be the first person to give anyone else grace. You miss an assignment because you were sick? Turn it in late, no problem. You&#8217;re struggling with the stress of applying to colleges, so you didn&#8217;t sleep last night? Sure take the quiz tomorrow. You need me to do an extra day of planning because you&#8217;ve had too much on your teacher-plate? No worries at all, happy to help.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>But can I give myself that same grace? Not easily. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>So I just have to tell myself, I am recovering. I was really sick. I can take some time to get my feet back under me. I don&#8217;t have to do all the things I usually do. I&#8217;m allowed to be imperfect and human. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Because we all are human. And I am allowed to be imperfect sometimes too.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I wouldn&#8217;t say that I am a perfectionist&#8230;because I am the least perfect person in the whole wide world. I&#8217;m disorganized, distractable, prone to laziness, certainly not detail oriented, and often wrong (but I will always admit it). I hold myself to an incredibly high standard though. I like to make sure I am always [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-125","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/grownupish.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/125","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/grownupish.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/grownupish.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/grownupish.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/grownupish.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=125"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/grownupish.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/125\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":126,"href":"https:\/\/grownupish.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/125\/revisions\/126"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/grownupish.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=125"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/grownupish.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=125"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/grownupish.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=125"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}